Sunday, August 17, 2008
it tore me inside.
my love? you know? the one i usually always blog about? i call him mike in my blogs? yeah, he broke up with me.i cried and cried you have NO idea..and get this.he did it the DAY before school started.i LOVED him.and he just left and took it all away.i feel like Bella did in New Moon when Edward left=/ my heart feels really hallow and empty.i cant sop from crying.everything i do or see reminds me of him.i cant keep myself together.he keeps asking me to hang out but i cant do that because every time i see him my eyes explode with tears.and he told me that he still loved me but i dont get it.i feel really drowned out..well my heart does.it's like he ripped it right out my body and ran off with it then chopped it up and stomped on it with huge baseball/ football cleats with freakin huge spikes.then he through the pieces in my face and said what now and left me crying in the dark hallway with everyone who hates me watching.although that really didnt happen but it thats how it feels.you just dont understand.i've been dating him for 2 1/2 years.from 6th grade to 8th.and i know that ppl may say tht im too young to fall in love but i cant help it.THERE HAS NEVER BEEN AN AGE ON LOVE.and i DO love him....ALOT and when i was around him he made me soo happy.and yeah we fought alot but who didn't.and when i was in his arms and we were holding hands and hugging..it felt so perfect.like two pieces of a puzzle.and when we kissed..it felt like i was on a cloud and that was the way life was supposed to be.i cant sleep and i cry while lying in my bed because HE is all i think about.pretty soon it's gonna be like New Moon.Everytime i do something dangerous imma here his voice in my head.but there will be a little twist at the end.HE WONT COME BACK!! I thought that i had found my Edward Cullen but i was ALL wrong.i loved him like--like--like a penguin love it's mate...or like EDWARD LOVES BELLA.i thought thats how it would be.because when a penguin has found it's mate, they never part.and Edward and Bella...dont ever let me begin.Now that he is gone, my heart feels really empty and it hurts.and he is all i think about.words cant evem begin to explain how muchh he meant to me.and this hugely long blogger thing...yeah it's not even the beggining..more like the introduction.I watched the Notebook today.YEAH, NOT THE BEST MOVIE TO WATCH AFTER A BREAK UP// he's all i thought about durring the movie....he' all i think about now..and he's all i been thinking about.and i cant stop and it hurts when i do..but it hurts even more when i dont..well i guess thats it.comment pleasee.goodbye=)
Thursday, August 14, 2008
Thursday, August 7, 2008
whichh??
not using real names here=)
Edward's my best friend.
Mike's my boyfriend.
mkaaay, so here how the story goes..me and mike have been goin out wince 2006 && at frst he was the sweetest thng everr!! buuuut, then i moved to alabama, so we brke up..then i moved back..dnt know whyy.but im jst happy we did.so whn i moved bck we got back togetherr, then idk whyy, but he brke up wth me=/ i was soo depressed..seriously..but i didnt turn emo, i didnt mean tht depressed.befoe tht my friend tld me to chck out ths dude ((edward)) cuz she was gonna go out with him nd i had 2 see if he was good 4 her..so i did, we met we tlked on the phone we became best friends..after me and mike brke up we went out, i broke up with him 2 days later because it was too early..then mike asked me backk out..of course..i said yes.we went out for a while but it wasnt the same..he was kinda mean, a little..and rude..and he would hurt me and i got tired of it...ALL of my friends tld me to dump him, and i had been thinkin bout it for a while..then i called him to do it and he accused me of cheatingg...just because he saw a guy flirtingg with me and hugging me..then we got mad at him then i broke up with him...then i went out with this other dude and he went out with this girll...i broke up with that dude because i missed mike and i'd never see him durring summer..then a week laterr mike broke up with the girl and asked me bakk out..stupid enuff i said yess...so we've been goin out for 2 months and he's been kinda rude and hurtin mee..ya know?? so i tlk to edward about it..and edward likes me soo mch...he tld me tht he would try to tke me..it wa funny..then whn he came to my house to hang..it was me edward and mike..we were at the park and i dug a heart in the sand..and edwatd put my name in it.how sweet=) so thn mike tried to sit on my shlders and then edward tackled him..he did the sme thng when mike tried to get on my shoulders...thy were so jealous of each othr.edward, like proteted me..and i REAALLLYYYY like edward and mike...help me..please??
Edward's my best friend.
Mike's my boyfriend.
mkaaay, so here how the story goes..me and mike have been goin out wince 2006 && at frst he was the sweetest thng everr!! buuuut, then i moved to alabama, so we brke up..then i moved back..dnt know whyy.but im jst happy we did.so whn i moved bck we got back togetherr, then idk whyy, but he brke up wth me=/ i was soo depressed..seriously..but i didnt turn emo, i didnt mean tht depressed.befoe tht my friend tld me to chck out ths dude ((edward)) cuz she was gonna go out with him nd i had 2 see if he was good 4 her..so i did, we met we tlked on the phone we became best friends..after me and mike brke up we went out, i broke up with him 2 days later because it was too early..then mike asked me backk out..of course..i said yes.we went out for a while but it wasnt the same..he was kinda mean, a little..and rude..and he would hurt me and i got tired of it...ALL of my friends tld me to dump him, and i had been thinkin bout it for a while..then i called him to do it and he accused me of cheatingg...just because he saw a guy flirtingg with me and hugging me..then we got mad at him then i broke up with him...then i went out with this other dude and he went out with this girll...i broke up with that dude because i missed mike and i'd never see him durring summer..then a week laterr mike broke up with the girl and asked me bakk out..stupid enuff i said yess...so we've been goin out for 2 months and he's been kinda rude and hurtin mee..ya know?? so i tlk to edward about it..and edward likes me soo mch...he tld me tht he would try to tke me..it wa funny..then whn he came to my house to hang..it was me edward and mike..we were at the park and i dug a heart in the sand..and edwatd put my name in it.how sweet=) so thn mike tried to sit on my shlders and then edward tackled him..he did the sme thng when mike tried to get on my shoulders...thy were so jealous of each othr.edward, like proteted me..and i REAALLLYYYY like edward and mike...help me..please??
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