it tore me inside.

my love? you know? the one i usually always blog about? i call him mike in my blogs? yeah, he broke up with me.i cried and cried you have NO idea..and get this.he did it the DAY before school started.i LOVED him.and he just left and took it all away.i feel like Bella did in New Moon when Edward left=/ my heart feels really hallow and empty.i cant sop from crying.everything i do or see reminds me of him.i cant keep myself together.he keeps asking me to hang out but i cant do that because every time i see him my eyes explode with tears.and he told me that he still loved me but i dont get it.i feel really drowned out..well my heart does.it's like he ripped it right out my body and ran off with it then chopped it up and stomped on it with huge baseball/ football cleats with freakin huge spikes.then he through the pieces in my face and said what now and left me crying in the dark hallway with everyone who hates me watching.although that really didnt happen but it thats how it feels.you just dont understand.i've been dating him for 2 1/2 years.from 6th grade to 8th.and i know that ppl may say tht im too young to fall in love but i cant help it.THERE HAS NEVER BEEN AN AGE ON LOVE.and i DO love him....ALOT and when i was around him he made me soo happy.and yeah we fought alot but who didn't.and when i was in his arms and we were holding hands and hugging..it felt so perfect.like two pieces of a puzzle.and when we kissed..it felt like i was on a cloud and that was the way life was supposed to be.i cant sleep and i cry while lying in my bed because HE is all i think about.pretty soon it's gonna be like New Moon.Everytime i do something dangerous imma here his voice in my head.but there will be a little twist at the end.HE WONT COME BACK!! I thought that i had found my Edward Cullen but i was ALL wrong.i loved him like--like--like a penguin love it's mate...or like EDWARD LOVES BELLA.i thought thats how it would be.because when a penguin has found it's mate, they never part.and Edward and Bella...dont ever let me begin.Now that he is gone, my heart feels really empty and it hurts.and he is all i think about.words cant evem begin to explain how muchh he meant to me.and this hugely long blogger thing...yeah it's not even the beggining..more like the introduction.I watched the Notebook today.YEAH, NOT THE BEST MOVIE TO WATCH AFTER A BREAK UP// he's all i thought about durring the movie....he' all i think about now..and he's all i been thinking about.and i cant stop and it hurts when i do..but it hurts even more when i dont..well i guess thats it.comment pleasee.goodbye=)