Monday, September 15, 2008
from my myspace...im saving it.
my dad?
okay well, first things first is my bffs dad got me my cell phone.well my dad bought it but its under their dads service and he paid the bills.well my dad and him got in a huuggee fight and my dad made him cut off my phone.about a week later he cut it bakk on but him, his ex wife, and my mom pays for it and said not to tell my dad.btw, i dont live w/ my dad and hes never paid child support and all.well for three weeks my dads been calling my house saying hang in there imma get you a phone but my mom still said not to tell him i have one.well my dad besties daughter and she asks me [[on my myspace]] "is that your cell in your default pic" it was but i told her "no, its my friends.i stole it from her...it was hillarious, you shouldve seen her face." but she goes and tells my dad.so he calls my mom and cusses her out and so she hung up.she called my cell and i didnt answer and she left a voice mail and goes "SO THATS HOW IT IS, MY DAUGHTER LIEING TO HER OWN FATHER, I BEEN TELLIN YOU 3 WEEKS TO HANG ON AND IMMA GET YOU A PHONE AND YOU HAD ONE ALL ALONG.AND HE'S PAYING FOR IT.YOU KNOW WHAT, LET HIM PAY ALL YOUR BILLS, AND CALL HIM DAD.DONT' CALL ME DAD, IM NOT YOUR DAD ANY MORE.IM NOT GIVING YOU ANYMORE MONEY, EVERR AND DONT YOU EVERR CALL OR TALK TO ME AGAIN.." and he said the F word somewhere in there....it made me cry so hard.but i went 13 years without his money or his opions, i don't need it now right? me and my mom get along great without him..right? help, im hurting so bad.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
SocialVibe
Help me rais money for To Write Love On Her Arms.Please join social vibe and help me support this cause.The more points you get, the more money you raise.This cause help prevent suicide.People have said that it can't be done, I think it can, but nobody tries.Help me and everyone else on social vibe raise money and prevent it.
Sunday, August 17, 2008
it tore me inside.
my love? you know? the one i usually always blog about? i call him mike in my blogs? yeah, he broke up with me.i cried and cried you have NO idea..and get this.he did it the DAY before school started.i LOVED him.and he just left and took it all away.i feel like Bella did in New Moon when Edward left=/ my heart feels really hallow and empty.i cant sop from crying.everything i do or see reminds me of him.i cant keep myself together.he keeps asking me to hang out but i cant do that because every time i see him my eyes explode with tears.and he told me that he still loved me but i dont get it.i feel really drowned out..well my heart does.it's like he ripped it right out my body and ran off with it then chopped it up and stomped on it with huge baseball/ football cleats with freakin huge spikes.then he through the pieces in my face and said what now and left me crying in the dark hallway with everyone who hates me watching.although that really didnt happen but it thats how it feels.you just dont understand.i've been dating him for 2 1/2 years.from 6th grade to 8th.and i know that ppl may say tht im too young to fall in love but i cant help it.THERE HAS NEVER BEEN AN AGE ON LOVE.and i DO love him....ALOT and when i was around him he made me soo happy.and yeah we fought alot but who didn't.and when i was in his arms and we were holding hands and hugging..it felt so perfect.like two pieces of a puzzle.and when we kissed..it felt like i was on a cloud and that was the way life was supposed to be.i cant sleep and i cry while lying in my bed because HE is all i think about.pretty soon it's gonna be like New Moon.Everytime i do something dangerous imma here his voice in my head.but there will be a little twist at the end.HE WONT COME BACK!! I thought that i had found my Edward Cullen but i was ALL wrong.i loved him like--like--like a penguin love it's mate...or like EDWARD LOVES BELLA.i thought thats how it would be.because when a penguin has found it's mate, they never part.and Edward and Bella...dont ever let me begin.Now that he is gone, my heart feels really empty and it hurts.and he is all i think about.words cant evem begin to explain how muchh he meant to me.and this hugely long blogger thing...yeah it's not even the beggining..more like the introduction.I watched the Notebook today.YEAH, NOT THE BEST MOVIE TO WATCH AFTER A BREAK UP// he's all i thought about durring the movie....he' all i think about now..and he's all i been thinking about.and i cant stop and it hurts when i do..but it hurts even more when i dont..well i guess thats it.comment pleasee.goodbye=)
Thursday, August 14, 2008
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